Thursday, March 10, 2011

Ang, it's your birthday

and I'll cry if I want to..

Just went to your facebook a few minutes ago and realized it's your birthday. Happy birthday other mother. I miss you uncontrollably. I can't even imagine what your family is going through, I've tried to understand because  I want to be there for them, but I can only know what I'm going through. And I know that I miss you more than words can describe. I do know that your free from pain and hardships on Earth I know that you're in a better place. God called you up there for a reason. He needed you more than we do down here. Even if we can't face that fact. Because in reality I know your sons really need you, I need you, and I know there are many other people out there who need you too. But party to the fullest up there. And just have a blast. I know you will.

Miss you and love you.
See you sometime.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Angela, I miss you...

A lot lately. Not that I hadn't missed you before, but lately it's gotta a little worse than before. I think that I've finally come out of the denial stage of it all. I didn't have to experience what others did with you. I didn't get to go to your funeral like I had wanted to. I didn't get to say goodbye really. No one got the right goodbye anyway. I just have to keep reminding myself that it's not a full goodbye it's just a "I'll see you later."
I know everyone misses you terribly. Who wouldn't? You were such a strong source of comfort and so easy to talk to and get along with. I still don't want to believe you're gone I really can't even wrap my mind around the fact that you aren't here anymore.

All I wanted to tell you was that I miss you really. Just had to get it all out. 


Don't cause too much trouble up there.
Until we meet again, I'll miss you <3