Dear You,
As this letter goes on, you should know exactly who I'm talking to and whether or not it's you. This is it, the end of all ends. You chose this, do not come back saying you don't understand what happened because you know damn well what happened. You broke my heart, yet again. I would have given the world to you if you had asked, and all you could give me was a good week of your time and an unexpected end.
Now, as I say this I wonder to myself if the chance was granted to me, would I ever take you back? And the answer, sadly, is yes. You stole my heart right from out of my chest, and that's something that I'll never fully be over. It's always this way, one of us does something to screw everything up, we stop talking whether it be days, weeks, or months and maybe in this case right now a year. (Which I know it's only been weeks but it feels like an eternity without you sometimes.) But we always run back to each other because that's the way our lives lead us. Maybe we aren't meant for each other but from the way we interact I feel like you're the perfect person for me. But, you've broken me one too many times and I can't take it anymore. As much as I say this, I miss you so much and the distance just makes it harder on me.
No matter what you've done to me, there are times where I think about all the good times and I can't help but want to see you and want to be in your arms again. The week before I left you made it memorable. I don't know where you were or what planet you were on to say "things weren't working" you were always asking me to spend time with you. You KISSED me, when I would have been fine with a hug. You gave me false hope, and that's something I'm not exactly sure I can forgive right now. You made me think you were happy with me, you made me think that everything was okay, when in the back of your mind you were just waiting for an escape.
Do you know how many people told me we should be together? How many people want us to be together? But, like you told me you need someone to bring around your friends. Funny, when we were dating did you try and have me interact with your friends or ask me to go somewhere with you and your friends? No, the only time we were with friends was that one night. And that barely counted. You honestly can't see me being around your friends? Well then, screw you. Maybe your ashamed of what you did, and it doesnt matter because you should be. You broke my heart again and again. And you have no sympathy for me? Well then fine, have a great life.
Just remember though, I loved you through the good and the horrible. I would have given up everything for you. Remember when you kiss whoever your going to kiss next, that I cherished every kiss I ever got from you. Every hug, every embrace, everything was cherished. As sad as I am, I feel sorry for you, because you lost someone who could have been the best thing in your life.
Remember when you hold her, how you held me and whispered you loved me into my ear. Remember when you kiss her, how you kissed me and everytime a smile creeped over our lips at some point in time. Remember when you drive around with her in your car how you would quiz me on who was singing, and how I would sing along with you. Remember when you take her around your family, how much I loved every single one of those people in your life and how I was so open with all of them. Remember when you take her to dinner, our first date and the day of our very first kiss. Remember when you watch movies with her laying on the couch, how I would cuddle with you while watching your favorite movies. Remember when you play guitar hero with her, how many times we played it and made fun of each other for the facial expressions. Remember when you have an energy drink, our inside joke together. Remember me, for the girl who loved you with everything she had and all she could give. And I hope you realize how much you broke my heart.
--- Me.
